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[Aug. 21st, 2006|03:05 am] |
i originally made this stupid thing well over a year ago to just talk to noone about nothing and how much i was in love with her and how much life sucked....one minute your up...the next your down. I am finally ok now with life...no fuck ok...im happy, damn happy, i dont regret one second of anything thats happened and I'm 10 times stronger for everything thats happened to me and im just gunna keep on moving forward...and anyone who comes with me good...anyone who doesnt..happy sailing to them...im out
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[May. 28th, 2006|10:17 am] |
yo what the fiznuck is a livejournal...why in the hell did I make one?
Im tinkin this is the last post since all of my last posts basically talked about you know who
well stuffs definately changed thats for dayum sure, oh well...lost another favorite person
so so far in the past 6 months ive lost 4 of my favorite people in the world
which is just greeeaat!!
oh well
na na na na life goes on
peace |
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[Feb. 25th, 2006|03:43 am] |
you said the person ive turned into is not the person you fell in love with....im starting to think its just you who has changed
prove to me thats not the case
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|12:47 am] |
Its ridiculous
It’s been months
For some reason
I just can’t get over us
And Im stronger than this
Enough is enough
No more walkin' round with my head down
Im so over being blue
Crying over you
And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done wit wishing you were still here
Said Im so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can’t I turn off the radio? |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|01:48 pm] |
two days ago, it would have been nine months since that saturday night we were concidered a couple. I woke up this morning...or afternoon i should say, missing you more than I ever have before. To try and remember what it was like to be completely happy, i needed to take a small dip into the past by looking at all of the text messages we sent eachother. I never thought a stupid thing such as you saying hi to me could make me happy. You started so many text message conversations with the words i love you...not i love you to. It was you saying you love me first....meaning out of the hundreds and thousands of people you know, I was the one you cared about more than anyone else who wasnt your own blood. I cant believe that after hearing words so strong out of your lips, or fingers, that i took advantage of what i had with you. What comes around goes around...for every minute of pain i caused you and you did not deserve, god gives me an hour of heartbreak. For every hour you did not deserve, i get a day. My quest to backtrack my life to before i met you is going well. I joke like i used to...i smile like i used to. Im genuinly happy some of the time again, which is a step. I looked at those messages you sent me from this past school year. We would text eachother 5 times during the school day alone. I got to talk to you and see you every day and yet i still came to take advantage of the most beautiful person inside and out that i have ever known. Im deciding to cut this letter short because i know you wont actually read it. I just wanted to say alittle bit more of how i feel. I know that as every day passes both of us get more and more ok with the situation we are in together...or rather seperate. I fear that the risk of pain of being together is what makes you not pick up your phone or call me back for a few days. I know your busy and you have a ton of things to do always, but it never seemed to stop you last year from texting me to say i love you or just plain hi. I hate the situation were in and i hate what i changed into. I know that you and i are ment to be together in the end and I hope you realize that. Moving on does not make it any easire. I hope you dont give up on us and know that in the end we can be happy together. My usual letters that make alot of people say wow...this one does not because im holding alot of things back. I know you wont read this anyway but if you do for some reason, dont give up. Its not easy to wake up every morning sad but i do it, because the pain is worth knowing one day you and i might be able to be us again
i dont even have to say it,
i love you |
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